In the search of Mr.Anderson

hey, i set up homestead somewhere else now...

at www.myspace.com/thebrandonbrowningshow

life has been good.
i have an acoustic ep out now. i think it's good.most of my time and energy has went into it.
school has been good. my friends, well, there as crazy as they've always been.
recently celebrated bubbles b'day...now we're full force into celebrating my b'day.
c'ton is basically my second home.
my church is my secret sanctuary.
pray for my mom and grandpa....recently we've took my grandpa to the hospital several times, and he's having problems with his GOLDEN heart.
i dont know what i would do without him. i love my dad, but my grandpa has shown me as much as anyone the man i wanna be as i grow. he's shown me the Godly man i want to be, and the strong man i need to be.
my mom...i just dont even know how to go into that.
my grandma's still good, so is my dad.
my bro's are all good...josh starts baseball soon & zack is still a butthead.
going to the nickleback concert> thanx to my babydoll.
trying to get myself hands on wrestlemania 24 tickets. gonna get ready for my SUPERBOWL for next year.
my babygirl courtney, and i are good....feels like the first date, first kiss, and first love still yet.
finding a blueprint to life...
it seems i've always thought i could fix whatever comes my way, and honestly i believe i can....someone asked me once, "how could God allow other men to tear down other men's spirits?", and i said "i dont know, how could we allow that to happen to us".
God doesn't allow horrible things to happen...things just happen for the best, it's up to you how you interpret them. and life has been good for me, no matter what direction it's gone in.

so go check out my myspace.
get back at me, and buy the EP album.
watch some wwe, and allow yourself to not think, or over think...neither is good or bad.
listen to some jimi hendrix.
drink some mdx.
and get back at me.
happy b-day to the Great One ...ya know... me.

whensomeonefallsdown?!?!pickthemup.

Brandon Browning

in the search of mr.anderson

there's a few things i wanted to address.
a few music wise, and a few personal.
considering that this is my site anywho...

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music:

doing a few shows.
do not know when the schedules are. im kinda just drowning in all this.
so many being booked, so many canceled, so many that im getting together to book. so bite me, ok? lol...some will be posted later.

going to do a radio interview sometime in November.
Shirts are to come in, in the next 4 weeks.
going to sale a demo too with it.

shirt: $10
demo:$5
shirt & demo: $12

the demo is going to have 16 trax, yeah i know, that's not really a demo, it's a full blown album, but again...bite me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im not professional, but im getting there. no im not perfect, but ya know, are you? ha. anyways...the demo is 16 tracks, all MY work.  Sampling, songs, ya know, whatever...

still do not know what to call it. several things are coming to mind, but ya know, i just can't put my finger on what i want to call it, because i want it to resemble this time in my life. but eh, go figure...

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life:

things. things are always happening in everyone's life. some ppl consider, some ppl dont. some ppl deal with it. some ppl become their own demise.
there are so many mixed emotions i have about the world.

my jaw stays tilted to the right, because it's stuck, or it's adapted to the position it's been in the past few days, from me...gritting my teeth.

ppl talk about everyone, some time or another.
no one's special.
the scary thought is, oh my gosh...you're being talked about too,
think about that. haha.

no. no pun intended. i am not running my mouth. but birds of a feather flock together, and if you're doing it, then what do you think your "so called " friends are doing?

and ya know the other saying "tell me who your friends are, and i'll tell you who you wanna be"...

yes. i am a wanna be.
yes, i wanna be like my friends, in a sense. i enjoy them. i respect them.
i strive to be like them in many indifferent ways. such as, the bliss...ignoring non-sense, and living in bliss, only acknowledging the things that make a true difference in the humanity of their situation.

yes, i am a wanna be.
i wanna be something. i wanna do something with my life. i want to become more than a boy who stays hopelessly in this town, dreaming of a life i could have had, if i only didn't blame other ppl for the things i am responsible for. no, i will not spend my days, drunk, high, nor spaced out in an altered state of mind...reality is too much for me in the first place, and i am man enough to face it, face to face, than hide behind my weakness, i may or may not call my ADDICTIONS.

yes, i am a wanna be.
wanna be. great ppl were wanna be's in the first place....
that's how they "came to be"

the size of the person, the ability of the person, the advantage a person has in a fight, does not matter....
the will to fight, is all that matters.

and i have the will to be. so...again...bite me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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yes, some of you, i haven't talked to. some of you i have avoided. some of you i do not need to be like this....and i need to reach out to you.

yet, how many of you have reacht out to me?
no. im not playing a lil mind game, forget that.
my point is...do not re-act,   feel the motivation to act.

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courtney:

i can't live without you. you complete every single thing in my life.
you are the reason i am breathing today, and you are going to be the reason i am breathing tomorrow. each day, i wake up with the thoughts...ya know, i just dont think i can bare today, the mistakes of the past are too much, and the problems of today are going to drown me, yet, i see your face...lying next to me, on my night stand, the phone rings, and i hear your voice, and the reason for the sun to shine is there again. i literally wake up thinking about you, and go to sleep, dreaming of you.

you're the last thread of hope i have in life. i truly feel God directly sent you to me. i love you with all my heart, soul, and being. i promise this to you. forever & always....no forget that...till frickin' forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love you courtney - 060505 - the hand of God graced me.

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God works in mysterious ways. yes He does.
Jesus, i just love His style.
and Dustin, i think about you all the time, but here lately i feel more like you're keeping a closer look out for me. i miss you cuz. i love you.....R.I.P. till we meet again.

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and im done.

whensomeonefallsdown?!?!?pickthemup!!!!
-that is???? love.
-love is????the most perfect equation.
- true story...the bible tells me so. it's in there, promise.

luv you guys.

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!!!ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

Brandon Browning T-shirts are coming in.

There will be "black, blue, brown, grey, and pink"

colored shirts with white

print of my name or of the symbol.

***let me know if you wanna order one. you know how

to find me***

personal:

life is great. been working with the guys, chris &

price, about getting this demo out. thinking about a

new name for the title of it, and new art. new material

that came straight out of my head is going on it. got a

new line up...go to my myspace to find it....new

guitarist and new bassist.

other good stuff.

my babygirl and i are still happily together, dur!!!!!!!

like forever. dur!!!!!! shew, i love her. the greatest

living inspiration to my life, other than "the Father, the

Son, and the Holy Ghost".

Brandon Loves Courtney - 060505 .... till frickin'

 FOREVER.

so anywho...

college is great. life is just great in general. of course

there are some speed bumps, and it seems as though

sometimes our shoulders can't hold the weight of our

friends and family, let along the world, and when the

ppl around you loose faith for tomorrow, there's

nothing left to live for. but i know...

i know exactly what to live for...a greater place.

a greater place She takes me. - courtney

a greater place He's living. - God.

a greater place he's also waiting for me. - Dustin

a greater place where the blind see, and the streets

are gold.

never doubt yourself. never give in to the extrinsic

motives of the world. and never give up on God.

"the greatest trick the devil ever pulled, was

convincing the world, he wasn't real."

dont let that be.

The Brandon

              Browning  show

subliminal thought:
whensomeonefallsdown?!?!pickthemup!!!!

well well, i think im going to edit...because i just wanted to post real fast to ya know...just show the mending and amends that have been made.

im feeling my interblack man, coming out...according to kalan ramsey. and andrew mcdonald, always claiming, i was born black, or i was black inside. haha
those my boys. lol

but im feeling a lil resentment. anger. betrayal. paranoia. and a lil bit disappointed.
yet, im feeling joy. im feeling relieved... amends have been made. and still are continuing to. i can't say that i am completely innocent in any of the incidence that's happen. but i would just like to say, please forgive me, for the clumsiness talk i have at moments when i speak of my dreams, ideas, and philosophies. i dont mean to portrait myself "self righteous" but at times, when in pursuit of satisfying your dream, you come off as that. so forgive me. "no pun intended"

to another:  forgive me for reacting when acted on. i've should have been realistic.

to another:  forgive me for targetting, if even by mistake.

i love everyone deep inside. not trying to sound like a friggen hippie, but i do.
and i guess its the interblack man that's speaking to me and be like "bump that!!!!" and just go about my buisness...and with this, i have to say...

Man...the place i live. no longer will live. the place i grew up, and the place that makes me throw up, countless nights.
love me, or hate me...you'll never forget me. for the energy you put in hating me, is energy of trying to forget me, refueling rememberance. and ppl who love me. God Bless your souls, you've tried forgetting me, or tried rejecting me, or tried hating me, and you just gave up, because you couldn't do it any longer.

"arrogant, snob, thinks he's better" no no, maturity... the bible says, when you become a man in Christ, you put childish things away, and AMEN to that. for it's all behind me.

i only pray you find the solitude, and peace i have in my soul, as i and many others who understand, and react the way i do about this place i onced called home.

another note:

i love courtney!!!!!!!!! always.
nothing will stand in the way of that love. all evil tendencies disappear, and im a better person, even so, the person i wanna be because of the influence she has on me.
so no, the only thing that could possibly stand in our way and tell us not to love each other would be God Himself. lol, seriously.

note #3:

my dreams. my hopes. my "wanted" accomplishments.
talk talk talk talk...all i hear is talk. who cares?
im doing what i love, and what doesn't burn my soul in the end...can you say the same?
im doing what i feel my purpose is...do you even have a clue what's yours?
im doing what i absolutely fits my bill, being me...can you even comprehend "being you" ?

no, criticism on another individual for wanting to accomplish things, for intrinsic goals, is not taken lightly by "true" ppl and even God. 
say what you want. it's your right to...but running things in the grounds another deal, and the judgement you have on me, is the judgement that soon will be placed upon your head.
haha, think about that!
oh it's true, it's true. haha

note #4:

nah, just joking, i've had enough of my non sense rambling on, myself.

whensomeonefallsdown?!?!pickthemup. plain and simple.
it's mathematical. it'll work. haha

who cares?
wait, i know...Courtney...for me.

I love you courtney with everything in me.
thank you for being you.
and thank Jesus for allowing it!!!!!!!!!

love you all.

Remember to stop by my "myspace".

www.myspace.com/thebrandonbrowningexperience

or just look me up under music. to the ones that care.

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